Who is in the Frontline….Oh! My God

Being brought up with religious values, I am always amused by the fact that I connect to God through my want of satisfying my needs. This brings me the thought of Maslow theory of management, as Maslow theory is widely speculated for accuracy, so is my thoughts! I feel our “needs’ is directly proportional to our connection with God. As Maslow states that Humans first tries to satisfy their basic physiological needs and so do “we” cry out to God to bless us with food, clothing and shelter, then it is the Safety needs that we pray for so that our wealth is safe and we continue to grow wealthier, then Maslow’s pyramid takes us to the belonging need where we undoubtedly want to be recognized and socially active by connecting with God and being recognized in a religious group satisfies it all. Finally it’s followed by the self actualization need where we think of moral uprightness and by the time we realize this it would have been too late. Today I realize the value of these sparks but I am not sure still if I will be able to follow what God really wanted me to do or continue to be happy self illusioned that I am religious and connected with God.

Its on this paradox that I think we act safe by positioning God in the front line in our battle of survival amongst the worldly pleasures, we always tend to mould the predictions of God blessing to our favor, we know its wrong but we continue to do that because we take “Him” for granted for “He” forgives all our sins…repentance we don’t want to think to much let us just pray sorry and comfort ourselves, God its all over…! Now for those who think on the immortal life. We have so much to think now, I cannot be a philanthropist to think beyond life or ordained of being a “Guru” reciting the basic truths. I still continue to pray God save “me”.

Defining myself

Defining Myself…..!

When it comes to criticizing others, I am best supported by my Virgo traits of being a good critic, but to self introspect one with a pious attitude is quite a lot of work to be done.

Physically as distinguished as I am, my origin is quite evident.Charactistically I self define myself as an individual who is high in ego but ready to handle its outcome in the most humble way, my taste for luxury is high but not technologically savvy ,with no definite long term  passion that makes me happy ,perhaps I live for the moment. It’s hard to accept that I have very low self esteem, though my strengths claim I am a self motivator. Leadership qualities have been part of my individuality, guess it’s inherited. Creativity, again a trait from my zodiac sign, I must accept in all humility I have “A little something of that…”

Family is very important to me, the reason being surrounded by loved one’s who sometimes get irritating though, and well! I think they do so for my best interest.

Materialistic pleasures have been blessed in abundance to me and I have taken undue advantages of that. Superstition has a small but definite role to play in the analytical time of my life. Strong in values of religious tradition to which I belong at the same time self tolerant to others perspectives for good and accepts the pyramid of universal truth of prayer, positive energy and love.

My friends very few that I have are very dear to me, I try to be loyal to them, for they have supported and loved me a lot, which I appreciate.

Professionally being a hotelier was not easy, emerging from the typical Indian family dreams of doctors and engineers was a quite a mellow drama, but  today I can be well deservedly be proud of my accomplishments and I am grateful to Almighty and to all of them who helped me in achieving it.

This reminds me of how I evolved myself, being a quite student I was not appreciated because it did not reflect on my studies but it all revolved and changed at the age of ten, I guess it was the first se3lf accomplishment that made me feel good ,My first prize on the elocution “Truth is the greatest power” looking back I still remember that I did not feel cold while facing 400 pupils of my school as an audience The good feeling lasted with more to come on its way for the next five years until I graduated the school.

Again I guess I was lost in goodness and felt I was lost in time when I emerged my wings out of the cocoon. I was not prepared to face the world. Two years of dreadfulness, I acted weird, did nasty things. I hate to remember!! The negativity also had its positive attributes .I was able to define my future studies and career here. The next four years of my life I was as happy as a flying bird, never regretted a moment.” the best four years of my life” .Oh! How I wish I could go back with time.

Leaping into professional world, I was well prepared by the rigors training by my Alma mater .so, adjusting myself to this new world was not strange.

Now that I continue to introspect myself further in quest of an answer I stand confused, the subject quite complex and sensitive, even my best of friends and family will be of no help to me. I hope time will help me understand it and I am positive “it” will do so. To balance my emotions until then…is quite a challenge.