Monday, January 17, 2011

A Mother's Agony!

A Mother’s Agony…………!


"Did you read today’s News headliner?" she asks me over a virtual conversation. No! I replied, “Three men raped a 4year old girl in a school bus” she further tells me “the accused are the Bus driver, cleaner and bus supervisor”. I could feel, if not completely, the pain and anxiety in her as she was a mother of three children.

Who do we trust? As we are living in this world among individuals who can cause harm to us, how can we protect our children especially when the children are too young to even realize and understand this thought of safety?  I will not be surprised to see all mother's looking at men with a suspicious eye, let it be within the family or a stranger as she cannot trust anyone when the reality scenario of the world moulds her to be like this.

On a recent TV show it was proven statistically that child abuse and child sex exploitation was an alarming concern than drugs in all countries especially the one which survives on tourism, partly to be blamed with the globalization. As such still very little has been done to actually stop or prevent this from happening. Social stigma and poverty has made it even more difficult for individuals to even report a sexual abuse of a child in both developed and developing countries, over the last decade we have seen many voices raised against child sex abuse within the religious community who we trusted. The awareness still has been slow and ignored. Organization like ECPAT-UK (End Child prostitution and trafficking children for sexual purpose) is trying to make a difference and they must be encouraged.

Today, when all parents strive and sacrifice to give the best for their children the very basic need of protection and safety for their children is the biggest concern .As we both end our virtual conversation in a different context and with greetings of the night, we know our insecure thoughts and feeling of helpless and hopeless on our children's safety are going to linger in our mind for the days to come.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Being Gay…………..!

Being  Gay…………..!


My world was my home and family until I leapt into professional world self challenging to myself, it was  great to venture out all by your own like a butterfly out of the cocoon ,I felt the freedom, though I was never deprived of it before. I felt nervous and the Goosebumps in me and as much I was relishing the new world of mine, my loneliness was developing in parallel to this stage of life.

Thanks to the technology that gave me a peek to the world outside my land as i had decided to work in an island resort, I felt relaxed and relived in a paradoxical environment where all who I served came to the land I lived for relaxation and I was looking beyond the same land for it.

No man is cent percent straight, so was my thoughts; it was weird at that time, not anymore to me, perhaps living alone made me concentrate more on these emotions. I was searching for someone who could be with  me in this strange land, a person who I could relate to and being in an all men environment ,it was not easy to find a person of opposite sex or strange enough I did not make an attempt for it.

If you think something in your mind you can hold it in your hand, one of the secrets of life that I have learnt in the recent past. I thought it would be hard but before I could realize I had many of HIM around me and I did not have to choose among the three because it was they who completed HIM and HE completed me.

Accompanying HIM made me happy and I started to appreciate the beauty of life which I had lost for a short period of time. Though, at times the future seemed to be hazy and short, I did not want to predict the reality but wanted to just enjoy the moments by being with HIM and at times i became possessive on them.

Each of HIM had a distinguished personality trait that I was attracted for, this made are wavelength of thoughts to match, unique to them, yet I could satisfy my needs & dreams in them.

In self introspection I was attracted to a part of  myself which I was finding in HIM that was  to me . It was all my interest ,all my liking that led me to them. Some traits I could not follow and I thought was just a dream I could feel it and see it through them .It was just their normal behaviors  that  I had self deprived to be in the moral good books of my family .Sportive, flirty with girls, challenging the very man made rules of nature at the same time being composed and handling responsibilities of life was the traits that I was attracted to the two of HE's ,the last among was the elderly delight who I felt protected always in his presence ,the little gestures of care made me feel being in a family. Together all the three completed the HIM,  the perfect mate for me, for this short journey of my awaiting long journey. Each experience teaches everyone something good or bad and this experience thought me to be myself .If this is being Gay …I am loving it.